Thursday, November 8, 2012

Ouch My Heart Hurts_Part 3

Look for opportunities for relief!

When I say this - I dont mean look at a bar, alcohol, drugs, parties, one night stands, or anything that will immediately try to help with the symptoms of hurt. These things are only distractions and can only temporarily ease the pain. It's similar to putting a band-aid over a severe wound. If it isn't treated - you can possibly suppress the infection for some time - but in the long run it has been left untreated and the infection can spread elsewhere and take a toll on your entire body.

What I do mean is - be on the lookout for random opportunities to help people. Realize that it is natural to become more selfish than EVER when you are hurting - because pain will take all of your focus and put it on YOU. To fight this make yourself take that focus away at moments - and look at others. This weekend I was at walmart I don't even remember how I got there or walking in because I was so consumed with chewing someone out in my head. I was on the verge of hysteria as I went to walmart to get a movie from RedBox. A woman came up behind me and was literally breathing down my neck. I was FUMING. I thought my head was going to pop off - I quickly made my choice and was walking out as she called out to me, "excuse me - I'm not sure how this works - how do I begin?" At that moment I wanted to grunt and say, "Have you been living under a rock?" But I began to show her and as I was helping her I realized she was looking at movies for her grandchildren to watch at her house that evening. She was sweet and was only breathing down my neck because she had never used the machine before. She said as I was leaving, "I appreciate you helping me. You are very sweet." You don't know what that did to my heart. It was like a moment of relief from my pain - she said I'm sweet! I'm not crazy! I do have a purpose here! Seriously - for like an hour I didn't focus on my pain - and an hour is a huge accomplishment in a crisis! Look around you!

Pile your troubles on God's shoulders - He'll carry your load, he'll help you out.
- Psalm 55:22

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